Finally… one good dream to break away from all the bad ones.
My daddy and I were video chatting on Skype. And I was asking him how he was doing and if it was really him on the other end. He looked so young and healthy and he said, “Baby! It’s really me! And I’m OK so please stop worrying about me. Look, I have all my teeth! And look, I can eat and drink whatever I want!” And I was crying and laughing and telling him how happy I was to see him because I had so much to tell him. And that I was relieved to see that he wasn’t in pain anymore and that he looked so alive. And then I told him what I’ve always wanted to tell him since the day he left me… I said, “Daddy, I’m so sorry. I love you and I miss you so much.” And he smiled at me and said, “Baby, everything is OK, I promise. Stop worrying about me and focus on you. I’m so proud of you. I love and miss you so much.”
By then my mind knew I was dreaming and he started to fade like he always does once I realize that it’s just a dream… But before he was gone I asked, “Daddy, can we keep Skyping? Can I Skype you again?” and he said, “Baby, I’m always here. Don’t forget that your daddy is always here.”
BEST. DREAM. EVER. And even though I woke up crying and I’m crying while I type this, it’s a nice change from the tears I usually cry when I think of my daddy. And even though I know the nightmares will continue, I at least have a little bit of hope that my daddy and I can continue our Skype session another time.
I love you, Daddy, and I miss you just as much today.
